Friday may 27 2005 R.I.P. Rocky ....

For 13+ years my uncles dog rocky was in our family ... he had him for 11+ years of rocky's life ... we got him a year or so ago and he became a huge part of my life ... he was one of the smartest gentlest dog's i have ever known... up until 2 months ago i woulda said he'd live till he was 17 ... never any major health issues ... but then he started losing weight and lost intrest in playing (we thought it was because we were cutting back on his food (because he was a tad over weight for his size )) and drinking allot of water almost a gallon or more a day (toward the end of his life )...(and for a little guy that's way too much) ...after noticing how skinny he had become (we'd been working 13+ hr's days mostly) we took him to the vet and found out he had several major health issues one was severe diabetes (sp) another was a bladder infection that was detererating his muscle control.... another was with his kidney's ... the vet said even with an operation there is no gaurntee he would survive and even then with the diabetes he'd have to have a shot everyday ... (what a miserable life he woulda had ) so we decided to take him home ...(for one final day) i spoiled him rotten i gave him almost all his treats ... all his pig's ears strips and everything else he loved including his favorite blanket ... when i got home all the treats and ear strips were gone ... we also went for a long walk ...(his favorite thing to do...) and anything else i could do with him ...
then it got to be 7:40 pm i only got home at 5:15 or so time really was against me ... i drove him down to the vet with people following me to say goodbye...and he was so happy he almost looked like he was grinning ear to ear .... i drove so slow cause i didnt want this to happen deep withen my heart ... all i could say was i'm SO sorry rocky over and over ... even yesterday when i found out ... i was saying that ... and because he knew so many command wordsand normal words i told him we dont want to see you suffer .... you are very sick ... be my brave lil baby ... i pulled into the parking lot and he started to howl and scream... i managed to calm him down by the time i got to the door by repeating myself over and over ...trying not to lose it in the process (sp)... i got there and put him on the counter and he gave me one last kissy on the face ...( he was so stingy with those in his life ) i wispered in his ear one last time i'm SO sorry rocky .... we took him into the room and met the doctor and rocky was rubbing his head against my belly and pacing ... i gave him one last rub down by the ear and he laid down for a min ... everyone said goodbye to him and i was last ... i gave him a kiss on the head and told him it's gonna be alright ... and said my last goodbye ... the dr took him away and i left a huge piece of my heart in that building ... even with it being a short period of time as the actual owner ... we bonded better than him and my uncle ever did .... i didnt wanna go home so i stopped in to see if my friend was still working ...which he was ... and i almost stayed and closed the store with him because coming home everything would have reminded me of my best lil friend a guy could ever have.....
some people say why get so upset it's only a dog ... to get over it already ... and other things ... to them i say he was a member of our family ... yes he was 13 but his breed lives till they are 17 or more ....

R.I.P ROCKY I miss you already ....