I also tried the free e harmony thing once and it told me that there were no matches for me that was very discourageing

It only gives you about 2-5 per day. They don't let you just look at everyone who matches, like all the other sites.

I didn't pay it was the take this quiz and find matches before you join thing would think they would atleast give you fake results to get you to join but nothing at all real confidence booster there

Yeah, it threw me for a loop as well.

But, as the 5 matches a day that I just delete can show, they start flowing in.

My DVR didn't record Lost tonight. I want to smash things, because of this.

Don't even get me started. "Normal" people don't exist IMO. We're all screwed in the head. Every last one of us.

I agree. Everyone has their own stuff to deal with. Although some people seem to close themselves off, like Thawm, Wade and I, while other people use it as an excuse to act like jerks due to their insecurity.

Honestly it just made me think that there is no one out there for me damn you Dr Phil damn you

I almost rented season 1 of lost got 24 season 1 instead which is die hard the series so awesome!

E-Harmony is rumored to be a Christian site. They don't advertise it much, but I'm told if you sign up and don't fill in the Christian check box, they sort of overlook you on purpose. Don't know if that applies here or if it makes you feel any better, but it may be a cause.

I was just like them until a time in high school when my parents pushed me to get a job outside my school district. I was 16 and working with a complete batch of strangers at a grocery store. The fact that I was able to talk to these people without any preconceived notions that I was socially undesirable gave me the freedom to let my inner self show through. I found I had more confidence in those situations. Over the years I've slipped back into my old ruts a bit (especially in college), but by then I had a core group of friends who've stuck together all these years. So it's weird. I know how all of you guys feel to an extent. I've just had different circumstances along the way that've allowed me to be brave for short intervals. Maybe you guys just need to break that daily routine in a major way to show yourself that you really are worth paying attention to.

I have my daily routine because I like to be in control I hate chaos complete randomness all that

"I believe I can see the future cause I repeat the same routine every day I think I used to have a purpose but that may have been a dream I used to have a voice but now I never make a sound I just do what I've been told I really don't want them to come around"

Breaking your routine is not the same as complete chaos. Moving to another city, with a new job and new people is not saying you can't have a routine. It's just gives you a clean slate with people you can make first impressions on.

But you are changing what you are used you are losing your control of your life I have been moving all over the place for years is probably why I have no life long friends military family and where I am now I finally feel I have some sort of control I don't want to be here but I finally feel like I am somewhere not just at a place for a few years but finally at a house which I have to leave in a few years and I am not sure where was always told where to go and when and now that is gone I am in college and no direction and just feel so alone though my family is here just so alone and lost in this world and just wish I didn't feel so alone...

Sorry guess just in a down mood today my car wouldn't start after work today so at the moment I have my car in the shop can't go to class and going to have to call out of work tomorrow

On another note I think I am holding a mafia record at the moment I can't talk about pretty irritating

This just calls for a group hug.

Who wants to fly me out to give Wade a hug?