A little hurt? What happened?

I'm really surprised that Jenny hasn't appeared, with all the actual family connections and all.

Really hoping for a special ith both Jenny and Tennant reprising their roles.

Considering that they are (I believe) dating IRL, that would be a bit awkward.

They're engaged. And had their first child together in the spring of this year.

That's going to be a fine thing to explain to their daughter. Yes, your father played the Doctor, your grandfather played the Doctor, and your mother played the Doctor's Daughter. Wait, wut?

Ah, didn't realize it was official! Lucky Doctor!

I was given news I've needed to hear for some time. It let me understand that waiting is wasting in some cases. So now I focus on moving on. Thankfully, Fall is a time for reflection, and I plan to learn from everything that's happened to me this year.

Sure, one night won't sum it all up, and it won't give me an instant change, but it has given me an idea of the person I want to work towards being. Well now, look at me. I'm turning this into a long rant.

I've made a lot of changes to myself personally this year. They've been gradually changes, but I feel the way I've gone about life has allowed me to grow and create lasting effects.

I've found a means to laugh at myself, though not in a cruel way. Just, letting myself be forgiving of my faults and my flaws (and believe me, I have many). But I found acceptance in that. No one is perfect, and the things that I don't like, I change. I grew up having all of the people around me telling me that I couldn't do the things I wanted to for different reasons. I took them at their word and never even tried. I became fat, lonely and completely withdrawn from life. Finally, I made up my mind I wanted to make a change. No matter what people would say to me, what I could and couldn't do in life, I ignored them and learned on my own what I could and couldn't do. I lost 140 pounds, started getting into health and fitness, and began interacting with people in ways I never had before.

So I removed those limits from myself. Of course, time allows people to become complacent, forgetting where they came from and the efforts they made to get there. I did forget, but at the start of this year, I was reminded of how I got the point I was at, and with the onset of atrophy, I was losing it again. So I turned things around and continued down the path I started for myself back in 2007, around the time I left the realms.

No, I'm not planning on leaving again. That would be the last thing I need to do to myself. I'm just looking for a balance. With everything I've done this year, I have no doubts that I can accomplish what I want. My only limit is me.

Life's all about balance, my friend. Specifically when it comes to the realms and mafia, I used to feel guilty when I would have to be more scarce on weekend or had a long night phase here and there. I realized that my wife and kids are way more important than a game. I still feel strongly about following through on my obligations, but I also feel that as long as I don't completely ignore my committments here, the people who are really my friends will love me for who I am and forgive me for small delays here and there.

I spent a ton of quality time with my kids this past weekend and it feels amazing. I mean I usually spend a lot of time with them, but since I spent a good part of Saturday taking down a dead tree for my cousin's grandparents, I missed them. I spent the rest of Saturday and all day Sunday giving them one on one attention and doing whatever they wanted me to do. I think that will make a more lasting effect on them than me being here will make on you guys.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that while we're all your friends and enjoy your company, we can't really claim to be your friends and then advocate holding you back from your true happiness. So do what you have to do, man. Just don't forget about us.

Thank you, but ultimately this isn't about me playing mafia. It's about me living in a variety of life. There's more than just the things I've so heavily focused on.

When I was hiking the Grand Canyon, I felt so alive, like I was doing something worthwhile. A thrill, a rush, physical endurance being pushed to my limits and beyond. I felt the same at the mountains yesterday morning, hiking up dangerous rocks, living it up.

And then I realized that I was letting others hold me back. I've been matching my pace to those around me. I wrote a song back in February about me and my friend, the relationship we have together. In the song, one of the lines about me is "With a focused tunnel vision, it's so easy to lose my way."

The line is intentionally ironic and is intended to denote how focused I get on one thing, losing sight of everything else around me. It isn't really Mafia per se, but it's more of the limitations I've placed on myself. I'm loving getting out there and doing things. The feeling of being free.

No, this isn't going to happen immediately. Anything worth doing is worth doing right, and that means a gradual change. I'm sorry for being all introspective... just feeling like I need to pep myself up today. Friday and Saturday were not good days, as best as I tried to make them.

I was relating it to mafia on my end. Obviously, you've got other things you don't wish to go into, though I'm sure everyone would be ok with it. This crew is rather theraputic for me at least.

I'm very fortunate. I have both you guys and the clixuals, and once and ogre, always an ogre!

Friday brought some bad news, and Saturday night, well... Everyone knows I'm a fool for love. A very big fool.

Things get better Kenny, just hang in there man.

On the introspective end, I have to make some serious decisions about being healthy and staying that way. It's going to be a hard road to follow.

On the superficial end, "Game of Thrones" is finally available On Demand. I have swept through the first four episodes and spent way too much time over the weekend being a couch potato. Which brings me full circle to making better, healthy choices....

I mean the following with nothing but the best intentions, K.

I'm not gonna call you a hopeless romantic, but rather a hope-full one. It's not easy to get your heart broken and yet to still be able to believe in love. Nevertheless, you continue to do so - and I continue having respect for you, for doing so.

The road doesn't always get easier, but it's always all about the company that you keep along the way. You know we're here for you, K-Man.

When the heck is He-Man going to open!






K, let me know if there is anything I can do for you.

I like your comment about the Grand Canyon, K. I remember the first time I jumped out of a plane (actually... the second... the first was mostly screaming)... not to sound cliche, but it was a truly life-changing experience, and changed my outlook on how I was living my life.